Monday, August 08, 2005
trouble in paradisewell, not really paradise, not even close, just that this phrase popped into mind. had a late night talk with the 2 ladies in my house, except my damei, who has one leg out of the family already.. haha. really mah... doubt she'll be reading this, together with my erm.. gf? she's not really into this sorta thingy. she only uses the net for her yahoo games. ermm...
the night chat happened really late.. at 'round 3 - 4am? yea, that's where i inherited my nocturnal genes from. imagine the family stil up and goin at that ungodly hour. my snooping xiaomei read my previous entry and knew what was goin on unlying the facade. told them the whole story. cos i realised that if you dont know the true story, and you stil read my entry, it can get pretty confusing, probably the way i articulate myself when blogging.
told them the blasphemous thing. that it was all beginning to look like a farce. it gets pretty obvious as days goes by. it all becomes clearer. i know what i want. but i cant just do it. no matter what i feel, im gonna be sensitive. realised someways im pretty selfish. its all ME, ME and ME. didnt gave much thought to what she wants. but i dont wanna mould her into what i want. realised my words carry much thorns and probably she got kinda hurt which resulted in the strained situation.
but still ...
right... we'll see how it all goes. keep you guys updated. through this, i realised that i got an ardent fan, or what she said, probably to boost my ego or something, wahaha. but im just glad that i got some readership at all. the postive feedback is a bonus eh.
enough of my stuff, getting kinda stale ya? broached on my sis stuff as well, how come she always have the luck in bumping into her exs? haha.. damn lucky eh? told her she should have shaken the girl's hand and thanked the girl for relieving her of that guy. oh well. i believe in karma. what goes around comes around. *winks*
last but not least, some dose of
nana taken by my xiaomei yest (we are both big fans of her) to sign off~
wen|ong @ 4:19 AM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.
