Monday, August 15, 2005
goins on for the week and morethose nosy enough about my current relationship status... its still ploughing along... better than what i've blabbed to you guys the previous posts.. im trying.. we'll see~~~
had an impromptu date with xue on wed, haven't seen her since her last (yea, hopefully its THE last) emotional upheaval with the pig. went to Paulaner's. just happened we were chatting on msn, then the brought up the topic of having some good ol' beer and then just like that, met up after she knocked off. ordered a couple of .5 ltrs of dark munich and then just chatted. been awhile since we went on a date, and i always felt good talking to her. never stuck for words. not like... ermm.. oh well, bitched about all sorta stuff. relationships, the 'L' word, goin-ons, work.. yada yada. funny as im thinking how we got to know each other while im typing this... i think that, fate does have a weird sense of humour, the twists and turns that one took so as to cross their lanes of another. whether in terms of friendships, or something more, fate has its funny way of working that intertwines a person to another. oh well...
it was a rendevous with siwei on thurs. went to catch a show, The Wedding Crashers, had myself a good laugh while he seem relatively unamused. wahaha, i do find silly over-the-top comedies (i dont always watch deep melodramatic philosophising movies ya?) a draw so it pretty fits the bill? well, he's my best mate, someone who i can really talk and unload to. amid the wisecrackings and sarcasm aplenty, ermm, mostly from my side i suppose. after the show, got a msg from my xiaomei wanting to meet me seeking my keen and sharp fashion sense (ok, im Reeally bullshitting here) to choose a shirt for her boy (are they or are they not??) went to heeren's flash and splash and pacific plaza to look at the stussy tees but none caught the eye. ended up, went to my regular shop @ FEP and got a XLarge tee, pretty nice, something i would have gotten if not due to Bape craze..
-.-" pang seh siwei, raf and his gf (who came to meet us after the show) to accompany her to get her tee.
then rejoined them for dinner at Scotts -
this place always bring back memories. no matter how many times i went there. the feelings would always rush back without fail like waves rushing to the shore. no point fighting it. rather drown in them i suppose, i'll be much more happier. would sometimes even take the escalators and just walk to the shop (or where it used to be) and just reminisce. as she always say (to my chagrin) how wonderful it will be if we can turn back time...
i believe that even if in this lifetime fate has no more plans for us, there's always the next.
bet you guys are feeling confused by this... probably only one person out there will get it.
life goes on~
wen|ong @ 1:17 AM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
so that's what the picture all about, took this from my xiaomei's blog...
that crazy girl wanted to take pic with her fishes.. LoLz
wen|ong @ 11:30 PM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.
Monday, August 08, 2005
trouble in paradise
well, not really paradise, not even close, just that this phrase popped into mind. had a late night talk with the 2 ladies in my house, except my damei, who has one leg out of the family already.. haha. really mah... doubt she'll be reading this, together with my erm.. gf? she's not really into this sorta thingy. she only uses the net for her yahoo games. ermm...
the night chat happened really late.. at 'round 3 - 4am? yea, that's where i inherited my nocturnal genes from. imagine the family stil up and goin at that ungodly hour. my snooping xiaomei read my previous entry and knew what was goin on unlying the facade. told them the whole story. cos i realised that if you dont know the true story, and you stil read my entry, it can get pretty confusing, probably the way i articulate myself when blogging.
told them the blasphemous thing. that it was all beginning to look like a farce. it gets pretty obvious as days goes by. it all becomes clearer. i know what i want. but i cant just do it. no matter what i feel, im gonna be sensitive. realised someways im pretty selfish. its all ME, ME and ME. didnt gave much thought to what she wants. but i dont wanna mould her into what i want. realised my words carry much thorns and probably she got kinda hurt which resulted in the strained situation.
but still ...
right... we'll see how it all goes. keep you guys updated. through this, i realised that i got an ardent fan, or what she said, probably to boost my ego or something, wahaha. but im just glad that i got some readership at all. the postive feedback is a bonus eh.
enough of my stuff, getting kinda stale ya? broached on my sis stuff as well, how come she always have the luck in bumping into her exs? haha.. damn lucky eh? told her she should have shaken the girl's hand and thanked the girl for relieving her of that guy. oh well. i believe in karma. what goes around comes around. *winks*
last but not least, some dose of nana taken by my xiaomei yest (we are both big fans of her) to sign off~
wen|ong @ 4:19 AM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.
Saturday, August 06, 2005
awkward silences
let you guys know some nuggets about me. im usually more of a listener than a conversation starter which is pretty evident in phone conversations. i dont usually start off a topic and go on from there and laugh at my own jokes (unless im in a kooky mood, which is like once in a iridiscent moon, but it happens, lol)
i suppose its all about chemistry? when words, topics, jokes free flow throughout the conversation without really suffering from long awkward pauses and silences. i need someone to kickstart me, to open up topics so that i can fill in and maybe ramble off something else.
this, i gotta mention my very good friend, bin. i've been talking to her like 8 years. either a daily, once/twice/thrice a week basis, even when we lost touch for awhile, erm 1 - 2 years? we still kept it up like bunnies (probably the wrong phrase, but at this time, i dont wanna rack my brains for another - haha) the words flow, the suanings (mostly from me, im pretty critical, not forgetting cynical, =p) back and forth like a tennis ball flying from one end of the court to the other.
more about my lovable friend some other time, i gotta digress~
im in a rut.
i dunno what to say. dont ever recall holding the phone, waiting for the other party to start something while she's also wanting the same of me. i always feel that there's no point in carrying on any conversation when there's nothing wanting to be said, where the tension in the air is soo god damn thick that you could cut it with a blunt butter knife. im here now. stuck. one thing that stuck that she said. i wasnt like this when im goin after her. which i retorted im always like this, the listener, dependent on the other party to start something therein i'll follow up...
... but.
there's always a but. she said she doesnt really take this "SHit" and think its "LAME" wherby she promptly clicks the phone on me. which is probably a sensible move - i absolutely detest people slamming their receivers on me.
then i ponder. and come to a conclusion but i dunno how to go about it.
i want my old life back. my melancholia, my nonchalance, my cynicalism, my bitter dauntless yearning for HER.
*cue for a lightning bolt to strike me*
wen|ong @ 2:45 AM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.
|
|
