Sunday, May 23, 2004

:: roll roll, roll your boat ::

sadly, by the time u read this, i will not be around. those who are thinkin the extreme (i.e : im dying), one word : CHOY! lolz.

will be sailing ya. and will be back only on friday. *siGhz* after so long, i still somewhat dread sailing ba. leavin home, loved ones, losing touch with current affairs, don't know whether is it a blessing or a curse that i don't have a gf when im posted to ship. still, its not totally that bad. one thing, can save money. for those sail-to-nowhere trips, not overseas trip where money flows out faster than a running tap, haha.

the camaraderie between the ship crew is one thing that u wont find on the other services? i mean havin to see the same people for a month and living together with them, in adverse sea and weather conditions, not to mention that the ship is not really that big, it kinda brings u closer to them. these are the people who wil fight and die together with u in war. so the dependence and trust must be there.

well, i dont mention my shipmates as colleagues to others. i mean, to me, to label someone as colleague means that u dont want to have anything to do with them after office hours? hee. well, its different that when u dont really like a person onboard, u cant really avoid them, unless u go jump overboard? lolz. its the same as any other workin enviroment, jus that some of the dynamics are slightly constrained? hee. so its either put up with them although they do irritate the hell out of u, or really make ur disdain clear to the person. the latter will make things ugly and workin together difficult, cos really, u might not know whether u need the guy or his dept help in future?

another thing about navy guys i've noticed. we are even more 38 then aunties, alot of gossip will fly around, something may happened overseas and it wont take long for those in singapore to get wind of the news. well, internally shipwise, gossiping is also quite rampant. although, its somewhat mean, esp to the unsuspecting or knowing victim, but these things, keep us entertained in way too? esp long trips. yesh yesh.. i know its bad. but hey, for all i know, i might be the victim also? but i SBC (simply bo chup) de. keke~

i get lotsa reactions when pple find out im in the navy. some of them are as follows :

1. so u guys go fishing when out at sea?

2. oh. u guys must like the sun, the sand and the sea.

3. so u're a diver?

4. navy guys... so must fall into the casanova/ flirtatious/ buaya breed

5. this is a new one, but its oh so cute: u catch those illegal immigrants who swim here? ^_^" [the police coast guard does that]

they may be more, but this is what i can think of now. well, common misconceptions ba. -.-" as a chinese proverb goes (can't think of the english equivalent now) : 不要用一个竹竿打凡整个船的人。[correct spelling?] loosely translated : don't use a bamboo to hit everyone overboard. lolz, doesn't make much sense in english i suppose? oh well~

although i can whine and complain to you how i loathe/detest/hate my job and i will be so glad to leave it next year. i also can tell you that its not easy leavin wat has been part of my life for 6 years. but i must go. as i've often tell people why i must leave, its i rather be jobless at 26 than 30. hee. also, really, its not what i want in my life too. i cant see myself doin that for the rest of my life. i got my dreams and i intend to work towards it also. (more on than some other day ba)

*yawnnnnZzz* am goin to bed now. see you guys when im back, prob friday. hopefully i'll see more responses when i back. some fan mail will do no harm. lolz. think hate mail or death threats are more likely? whatever. =b

ciaoz~

post scriptum (haha. i finally know what "p.s" stands for le) : yesh, i will miss you much de. ^_^ and you, you, you and lastly, you. lolz. before loggin off stil spouting lame/cold jokes. lolz.

wen|ong @ 11:13 PM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

:: tired ::

make this as short and as sweet as i can. really tired. think i go zzz after this. played bball the whole day, under the scorching sun. treacherous weather these few weeks, dont u agree? besides, ship today also quite busy. have to load and unload stuff, cos of fumigation. if ure interested to know that, kindly tell me, if not, can't be bothered to explain. lolz. just got back not so long ago, luckily raphael borrowed car from melvin, who's on duty today, then can get back early. took a refreshing cold bath immediately after i reached home. whole body so soft now. keke. ermm, drinkin a cuppa coffee now, cos my xiaomei asked me if i want? being the hopeless caffiene addict i am. i jus cant resist an offer like this. *evil laughter* muahahaha. =b

well, even so, dont think the caffiene effect will do much to prevent me from fallin into slumber. hee. gotta go.

night night!

wen|ong @ 9:11 PM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.

Sunday, May 16, 2004

:: woohoo... im back!~ ::

yea baby!~ ran thru my few recent entrees. damn... boy was i shocked. hate it when i fall into those phases. well, reason for sudden positive change of mood? well.. perhaps, tmw is monday, startin of the work week? crazy u say? well, work, loathe it sometimes, well mostly, all the time. but, its not that bad, it can help me not think of other stuffs. muahaha~ or maybe perhaps, after running through all the thoughts, i decided to pull myself out from the depths of depression since no one is going do that for me. well, really, this kind of thing don't happen often. no no, its not a PMS kind of thing. PMS for me is only Poor Man Son, which i am. lolz. lame!~

yep, that behind. bummed at home the whole day. yep, im collecting dust, and cobwebs are all over me, not to mention mushrooms growin too. grr.. hate rotting at home. oh well, perhaps maybe once the week starts, this will be a luxury. hee~

lotsa nice shows comin up~ want to watch Troy and Shrek2! jus cant resist, although i suppose no one wil respond de, anyone wants to watch with me?! haha. there, i've done it. 不要脸的东西。lolz.

oh, to leave on a happy note (at least for me, duhz) non football fans bear with me ya, my arsenal won their game last night, which makes them unbeaten for the whole season. yay. nothing to say man u fans? wahahaha~

bleh.

wen|ong @ 9:55 PM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.

Saturday, May 15, 2004

:: loss for words ::

hmmmzzz. dunno why. been tryin to write something but cant really think of anything to write. have gone thru a few drafts before this. kept changing and changing. dont really know what to put down. just write for the sake of updating ba.

ermm, for starters, i can tell u wat i did today. watched 2 dvds, Bridget Jone's Diary, Matchstick Men. nice shows, certainly helped me spent time, else i wouldnt really know what to do then. so bored. felt something is missing in my life? or maybe someone? but then, i've been single mostly in my 24 years. surely i can handle that? maybe when im out with friends i wont feel that way, a temporary distraction. zzz~ so depressing. skip subject!

well, i'll know i'll be ok de. ermmm.. soon i guess. its jus a phase or something. yea right, a mid-adult-life crisis ba. lolz. suan myself first before let pple suan me. bleh. =p . maybe taking these few days off isn't such a good thing after all ba. at least work will take my mind off all this. escapist. jus the way i am.


p.s : now lazing on my couch while watching tv. waiting for arsenal's match with leicester later. they will go through the season unbeaten if they win this. hopefully they do. go gunners~

wen|ong @ 8:57 PM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

:: books and covers ::

Her smile sadden me deeply.
Such a exquisite irony
Are we not meant to be?
Or the plain truth i cant see?

Am i shallow in perception
to chose a cover of a book,
without takin a second look?

This I know I'm surely not,
for i cherish the content
more then the cover,
which may fade or lose its shine.

I await the moment
when the book is mine.

For she's taken
by someone
who treats her fine.
by someone
who treats her divine.

In turn she loves him too i guess.
Maybe more
or
Maybe less.

Even if thats the case,
then time is for me to waste.
I don't doubt myself,
So why doubt me?

copyright © 2004 by november9th.

wen|ong @ 8:19 PM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.

:: random thoughts ::

my mind's been havin alot of thoughts lately... jus figured i have to get them down somewhere, so they dont hog up my phone memory. kinda reluctant to, cos some of them quite ermm.. dark and depressing. a side i dont feel like exposing to people.. haha. *nervous laughter* ermmmm, oh well. here it goes~

:: Darkness envelopes my eyes,
fighting tears threatening to fall.
Biting my bloody lips.
wanting to give it up all,
to relieve the anguish
of my broken heart.
i struggle not to fall apart.


:: As I burst into a silent song
making words as as i go along.
Gentle notes
sharply pierce
the stillness of the night.
white roman candles set
Alight.


:: Hate, frustration
Fear, isolation
Love, elation
Bliss, exhilaration
conflicting emotions
harassing me.
defiantly i stood
wanting to be free.

copyright © 2004 by november9th.

ermmm .. assorted thoughts, but still copyrighted, lolz, cos im not sure whether they'll be a complete poem later or just unfinished ramblings of a dazed and confused youth, ermm .. me lahz.. lalala~

rest assured i'm alright ya~ ermm.. if anyone is concerned? im normally bright and chirpy de. *smile* =p



wen|ong @ 7:10 PM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

:: what monday blues? ::

well, its my off today, went to watch Van Helsing with a fren. who kindly watched it with me even thought she's watched not so long ago. cos also the timings of the other shows quite late. feel very bad about it although she keep insistin she's ok with it, saying that its that good a show to catch a second time. *awwwwww .. isn't she sweet* keke.

yep yep, the show was a good ol' action movie, with lotsa stunning visual effects, i like the parts of the werewolf's transformations, one question, hw come the brother's version is brown while van helsing's one is black and bigger sized de? *wonders* and its got also some funny moments, esp van helsing's fren. Kate Beckinsale was very pretty and also one of the dracula's bride (the last one, josie moran, bin's fav supermodel =p) hmm.. i still prefer Anne Rice's version of vampires. hee.

after movie, we went walkin around, browsing magazines @ popular, well, she was like "huh? here can jus browse the magazines and read like that ah?" cute right? well, i guess she's dont have much bookish or nerdy/bookwormish frens.. who likes to go bookstores one. lolz. then lastly had dinner @ a pasta/pizza place before we went back. or rather second dinner, cos i ate some before walkin around. high metabolism, is like that de. yea, both times, she's jus an spectator.. lol. ever the gentleman *puke* i insisted on sending her home, ermm, or rather, accompanyin her on the bus. -.-" ermmm.. her place was quite unfamiliar to me, cos i nvr been there before, but ever the resourceful me *puke puke* managed to get home in one piece w/o goin by easier way out and flag a cab~ keke.

yea, pretty much enjoyed myself today. =) .

wen|ong @ 12:46 AM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.

Friday, May 07, 2004

:: happy mother's day ::

had a early mother's day yest evening. together with my mum (duhz), 大妹，大妹's hubby and 小妹 @ eastpoint sakura (some chinese thai restaurant) chose there cos: 1. we cant think of anywhere else. 2. its near our place. ermm .. that's it? hee.

hmm.. think i missed out someone.. *ponders* oh ya.. my dad. lolz. so bad hor. well, im not really on bad terms wif him. althought sometimes i really cant stand him sometimes. and its very rare he can make me get all flared up, ermm, jus a hi-bye dad? so sad hor? some of u might say, he's still ur dad, so at least try and get along with him. i did tried ba. i stil recalled that i was my first overseas trip which was a month, towards the end of the trip, i quite miss my family, so i resolved that, yep, i shall try to treat them better, including my dad, but.. after a while, i did really like tried to get along .. but grrr.. lolz. i cant do it. keke. well, if u think that is bad, u should see my how 大妹 talk to him ba. =p

yea, dont digress, back to the topic, after dinner, which was kindly sponsored by mr and mrs ang. lolz, my sis and bro-in-law lahz. well, for my part, i have to give my mum and angpao after i got my pay. hee. after which we went to TM to get my mum a pair of shoes for her work. was walkin around isetan, metro, c&k, u.r.s, still cant find what she wants, (she likes straps at the back, no heels) we were quite tired at the end of it, then gave up the search and went back home which was ard 9+ when we reached.

after that me and xiaomei were fooling around with our phones, this are the pics taken from mine:
xiaomei, mum and me, mum and me, the 2 BHBz =p.

am closer to my mum ba. she really holds the family together. yea, dont worry, u may hear horror stories about tyrannic mother-in-laws, but dont worry, she treat my prev gfs very good de. so... any takers? lolZzz. maybe i should give her a hug like someone who told me too. *blush* .. =p . well, dont think she'll be reading this. but still, i would like to wish her and all the mothers out there a HAPPY MOTHERs' DAY~

zZzzz, got duty tmw. another saturday again. sianz. well, think positive, at least once the weekend is over, it'll be the 10th and u know wat day is that? payday! =p .

oh, and someone's ordeal is over le, now, must be so happy ya? now, only left for ur voice to come back. keke, and it'll be perfect~

binbin has finished her major assignment for her degree. yay~ my movie kaki is back le~ lolz.

take a look at pei's girls here. kyla's such a babe eh? beginning to like thisbe too, so shy. and clovis, the newest addition is a stunner too. haha. so when are u goin to customise aubz and beckz? *wonders*

have a nice weekend.

ciaoz.

wen|ong @ 9:08 PM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

her sadness, my sorrow

Sadness incandesce dimly from her eyes.
Sorrows subtly lies underneath her smile
Her thoughts lingered on dear ones
lost and so far
Away.

If only I could,
I would reach to the depths of depression,
and bring salvation to her soul.

If only I could,
I would brave the raging storms
and shelter her from the cold.

If only I could,
I would dry her precious tears
and extinguish all her fears.

If only I could,
AND I would, burdened myself with her sadness.
cos no one should
suffer the helplessness

Of her anguish now.

copyright © 2004 by november9th.


:: smile girl~ *^_^* ::

wen|ong @ 8:32 PM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.

Monday, May 03, 2004

:: a clarification and other stuff::

lately, i got the cold shoulder treatment from a fren. its still ongoin tho'. im kinda have the idea of why she's doin that. i guess its after she read one of my entry, but i can only tell her that she misinterpreted my entry. i am not in love with my fren's gf. im not treating u as a sub for anyone. i dont do that to anyone, and i expect no one do that to me too. i can always explain to u wat happened if u give me a chance to do that.

its kinda sad, i wanted this blog thingy as an outlet for me to rant and rave, for me to transcribed what i felt inside into words. although, its exhibitionism of a certain degree, i do admit, but its the next closest thing to a diary. im just too procrastinating to keep one. i certainly didnt expect to get misunderstood for it.

well, am happy in some ways tho'. binbin msg me in msn asking me am i ok? whether i want to talk about it? cos she noticed i sounded sad and she's wondering what happened. she's bogged dwn by her assignment til the 5th, so i didnt wanna unload my troubled thots and feelings onto her. hee. its nothing much also, i ok de. but your invitation's certainly warmed my heart. =)

lastly... i jus got a haircut today.. ermm, my hair's never been that short, since BMT. guess i shouldnt have told the hairdresser " 随便你剪吧， 好看就可以了。" - sui bian ni jian ba, hao kan jiu ke yi le - anyhow cut ya, as long it looks good. haha. well, it was nice i suppose. jus i was wanting to laff when i saw the mirror cos i nvr seen myself like that before also. that means i have to spent time to style my hair every mornin... siGhz. >_<
have to get used to it i suppose. anyone interested in seeing? i can mms u the pic if u want? keke.

=p

p.s : to a certain someone whose havin her exams this week, gambate ne~ 加油加油！~ 4 more days to go!!!~ =)

wen|ong @ 6:22 PM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.