Sunday, March 19, 2006

believe that love will reign, believe that love will prevail...

and thus im lost
once more.

is it for me? im that ignorant - so can u just tell me? after 9 years, we are way pass these games already.
dont wanna assume too much also, cos if it turns out that its not for me, i'll be crushed indefinitely

i'm feeling like THAT needy chick again.

absofuckinglutely hate that feeling of helplessness.



i seriously need clarity in this matter.

sighs.

wen|ong @ 11:10 PM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.

Saturday, March 18, 2006

Q&A

alright people, this is goin to be totally random. im just typing this from the top of my head while msnsing with a dear friend who's contemplating a about turn in a lost cause who's apparently wanting to be found again. i've always biased against guys of a younger age even though i could empathise with them since i was not long ago one myself years back. but the truth is - we take a long time to grow up and some of us may not even do that.

its about being in a limbo. a emotional limbo. a very fucked up situation to be. when u know that u're heading to the edge of cliff with the utmost surest chance of falling into infinity but u'll still persist in goin that way.



"TI KI" (hokkien for metal teeth - which translates loosely in English as stubborn) is what my dear fren xue called me when we met up for her overly belated bday dinner - my fault actually... i make such a lousy friend, i've actually forgotten her bday for almost a week and when i finally remembered, its due to her subtle hinting... its my dumb luck and fortune that i've made a forgiving and kind and not forgetting beautiful friend like her (note the gleaming flattering tone - its that obvious huh? =p) had a nice dinner at a nice place and chilled at acid bar to end the night. its always good to catch up with her. where we each shared our own sob story and all. haha. even in my wrecked emotional state of mind, i still can lecture and nag at her. its for your good my dear. =p



some things u cant really stay totally nonchalant and let it stay dormant when u know that at the end of the day, u want an affirmation -

i dont need anything much from HER really. have put in to her in a simple question really. 2 definite answers. YES or NO.




Nothing.


Que Sera Sera. Whatever will be, will be.





maomao, i didnt got my answer how?







wen|ong @ 11:31 PM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

another new post,geez, im really getting productive these days eh?

just did something i nvr really did before - left tags on my xiaomei's blog. usually just a lurker, read and that's it. but i could see this time she's really goin thru a bad patch in her relationship though she doesnt really show it at home. not really an expert on relationship matters - my own track records doesnt really hold up. *blushes*


hope everything will work out for my lil sis....


[ i guess that goes for most people - we have a side of us we could keep it in the dark, to ourselves only. even our best friends and family would be kept in the dark. life is indeed a charade, we need to upkeep our usual demeanour to others while being fcuked up all inside. its not hypocritcal nor fake, its just something we want to deal with - in moments of solitude. we can appear merry and cheery, be happily and jokingly but inside we feel empty or sadden. usually the source can be traced to some aspect of your life, namely career, family and $. its hard to achieve a balance. sometimes, too many factors are involved. reluctance to move to uncharted territory i suppose. perhaps in that case, a change would be better for the good. ]
*that just came into my mind after a short conversation with my feline friend. just have to put it down before it slipped my mind. i do relate to that.



something to add - after re-reading my previous post ala comeback post. i felt like a needy chick. i took this term from the 2nd last epi of SatC where Mr Big told that to Carrie when she didnt respond to his phonecalls. i do feel that. the callings, the waiting, and then the callings, and the waiting again........ u get the idea.



and she still didnt get back to me.......... yet.


oh well.

writing this while the din of television blares on behind me. 娱乐百分百 - with xiaozhu and aisa now. my daily dose of chinese celebrity news (or gossip =p) would stay up to watch that if im not that bushed. not entirely on that, im not that 38 ya. its also quite comedic especially the song competition which involves celebs themselves, really cracks me up sometimes with their antics and jokes. and also the fashion element, seeing what xiaozhu wore on the show, sneakers and tee. not that i idolize him nor wanna copy his style, cos he's into bathing ape, nbhd and what not and usually rocks the recent releases. those japanese labels that im kinda interested in though not really crazy about them now. for example, tonight's epi he's wearing the baby milo x hello kitty tshirt. its the 2nd edition.. i've got the first one released last year. =x ...



my work revolves MOSTLY around ladies' shoes. with bags and accessories thrown in. so that kinda seeped into my subconscious. not in the CKP (chee kor peh) sense, i would usually be interested in what girls will be wearing. how they match their outfits with their shoes/accessories. the contrasts, the styles. and the season's trends. realised that most sg girls dont really give a damn about seasons, its more about practicality. whatever looks good, feels good would be their priorities. the s/s and a/w trend concepts probably hold water for fashionistas and tai-tais.

im still as bloody straight as an arrow
*glares at the suspicious folks*





Bag of Spring/Summer 2006 : Chloé Edith - come buy from me la!!! =p

wen|ong @ 1:08 AM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.