Sunday, October 10, 2004

:: road trip! ::

been realising that my recent posts has been bordering to the point of bimbo-ness. why, in contrast to the dark and depressive side of me. well, thing is, though its been pretty hard chasin' away the blues, but these is also the realisation that there's no point in making myself miserable, in yearning for the unattainable. which is of cos, the four letter word - L.O.V.E . i've made up my mind to not go find it, if it happens, it happens. im not goin to let myself fall into the trap again. so its like a i dont bother u, u dont bother me situation. lines drawn, boundaries set. me and L.O.V.E. no doubt such a situation will be slightly daunting for a incurable romantic such as yours truly, but im sick of getting hurt, sick of waiting, sick of missing, sick of the it all. absolutely disenchanted. totally repulsed by it. i've locked my heart and thrown away the key. for if someone is goin to enter at all, to occupy the room in my heart, she do have to break the doors down. yea, im a selfish bastard u might say. but im really really tired of searching, of pining, of thinkin whether the person is missin me as much as i miss her. in the words of my friend, Celine : FUCK LOVE.

well, i may contradict myself in future, but till then. at least this is what im trying to drill into my head constantly. bite me. grrrrrrrrr ... lolz

alrighty, back to the main heading, leavin in an hour's time for a road trip with my ship mates, jimmy, fabian, seng and tennyson... 5 of us. goin to Hatyai then to Penang, lastly KL. all 3 places i have never went before. *suaku* first stop, Hatyai will take us 13 hrs to reach there by bus. oh my.. help me pray that i will make it! can die sia.. almost die-ed on the genting bus trip a few years back. or maybe ask one of them to knock me out.. lolz. yea, we didnt take the fancy pansy methods of travelling, like plane and stuff. its like goin there and then making plans, free and easy. no itinerary at all! well, some of u pple out there might not prefer that as they want everything to planned for in advance, well, we did have our lodging and accomodation booked, so its not totally walking in the dark situation. just the bus tickets, we'll book from there. heh.

bollocks, havent even pack my stuff yet.. haha. goin to sign off here ya.

see ya in a week's time! provided the nightlife in KL is even happening that we thought.. Zouk! hahaha~ =p

ciaoz~

wen|ong @ 3:50 PM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.