Friday, September 10, 2004

... as fatigue overcomes

been meaning to drop an entry when i came back last monday, wrote some stuff about my trip and some thoughts and feelings about some stuff, can't really finished that entry up, so while im stuck there, i'd figured i'll drop this instead,

feelin slightly disenchanted really, about being chirpy and cheery while inside, im all messed up. read before somewhere in someone's blog about being a cryin' clown, similar sentiments arise, yea, i'd always tried to cheer pple around me who are down by being somewhat of a clown, but i'd realised that when all the dust is cleared and settled, i kinda feel that emptiness inside of me, can't really explain what it is, its kinda like a downward spiral leavin me spinning helplessly into a chasm. sighz~ well, fear not, i'll always cast away these negative thoughts if need be. i just need my space. and i have lots of it. just need someone, somehow, somewhere to share. to pour out what i've bottled inside of me, to just lay my weary body and let me drift -

far far away, away from it all~

brb.

wen|ong @ 6:28 PM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.