Tuesday, June 08, 2004

:: big toe blues ::

i've not been workin since friday. the doctor @ my camp give me 5 days MC [my longest to date] well, me and MCs, dont really go well together. its due to an injury to my right big toe. its bruised and has a blood clot underneath the nail, hope u people are not eating or just eaten when u read this. haha. actually it looks as though i painted the toenail in a dark red color or something. it does cause me pain of a certain degree. shoes is a definite no-no. oh well. tmw i've to go to changi hospital to have them to a minor surgery on it i suppose? ermm, first time goin to a hospital, less to have a surgery, does gives me chills. alot of what-if questions swirling around my head. even sadder, i've to face this alone. yea yea, what a big wuss u say. i'm needy. so what?

been lazing/rottin/comatosing/staring blankly at the walls at home this few days. u may ask, what about my friends? yea, what about them? sec sch frens, ermm. if u read my earlier entries, i was involved in a debacle with one of them. and ever since, dunno why, its kinda like the whole network mysteriously fallen apart? not implying that i got backstabbed or something. my back's full of wounds i'd imagine? oh well, as nonchalant as i am. this i can handle. i still got some left, but they are too busy with their gfs i suppose.

so lemme see. minus the sec sch friends, im left with some buddies/good friends, they are either busy with upcoming exams [bin], married with a cute baby girl [ru], attached happily and moving house [qing], attached happily (?) and busy with work for 2 weeks [jo], cold shoulder treatment for reasons known to her yet unbeknownst to me [pei], an ex gf who called again recently to talk but must make specifically make prior appointment to meet, then rest of the week MIA (-.-")[lyn].

so for the equation im also left with my shipmates, but most of the time, we seldom get together after office hours, esp during weekends. sad right? the older u get, the lesser good friends u get to make. read somewhere that its in ur formulative years (e.g school days) that friendships with strong foundations are forged. somemore with my character, i quite ermm, "dao" and selective with new people coming into my life.

well, practically seamed onto my bed these days. went through 3 seasons of Sex And The City already [nice nice!], Ocean's Eleven [cool show], Audition [i-don't-really-get-it show]. now i know why singapore wont broadcast SATC. knowing our culture, it's probably too radical. can imagine the number of call-ins to complain about it if its shown. this kind of show, u can't really watch it when its censored, its peppered with f-words, sexual overtones throughout, and its absolutely hilarious some parts. it does tell it as it is, no holds barred. its not really about sex throughout also, it talks about relationships, scenarios and u and me finds familiar also. some parts will also tug at your heartstrings.

well, i could ramble on and on. but i shalt spare u that. nahz, abit bushed. yea right, coming from a guy who's on MC the last 5 days. perfectly good excuse for me to type so much rubbish in a matter of mins. god im pathetic. >.<

wen|ong @ 10:45 PM
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say 'Good night' till it be morrow.